Today's Little Miracles

First camp of the summer arrived today..and we have 108 energetic children lodging at our camp this week. Right up until the kids got off the bus, it still wasn't feeling like camp...still hadn't really hit that it was all starting. I'm not sure why it's taken so much to get into the camp "mode" this summer. If it's because I didn't have as much time this year to plan out everything...or because it's a much younger staff...or because I never anticipated that I'd be here for another year...or because I was just being too distracted by other things that I haven't let myself get into gear with the camp ministry.

About half an hour before the bus arrived this afternoon though, I knew I had to make a decision. Break down whatever crazy walls and barriers I had put up that was preventing me from being excited about this summer, and surrender every selfish and dumb thought to God....or continue how I've been the last 3 weeks just going through the motions and putting on a fake smile to everyone that I talk to. I decided I should go with the first option. I finally took a minute to stop, actually talk to God, and just let go. I know I'll have to do it probably every day as the summer progresses...but it's one day at a time. Today, I gave it all to God..I broke down the walls and I laid it all at the Lord's feet. Today I went through everything with God right beside me. Today I was strong, empowered by God and feeling confident. Today was good...and I know He is already at tomorrow, waiting for me to let go and have another incredible day with Him beside me.

I love these kids, and I've had such a great day seeing old faces, meeting tons of new and wonderful children, and just hanging out and being blessed by the presence of so many beautiful souls. I am absolutely bewildered by the size of twin girls who I had in my cabin my first couple of years here. I have memories of them sitting huddled together crying because they were homesick, as two very little precious girls. And now, I had them today come running off the bus and give me a huge hug...and they're nearly the same height as me! They've grown into two incredible young warriors for God..tall and strong...I love it.

My favourite memory of today is with my boy Daniel. Last summer he was a little scrawny of a kid, who had a lot of difficulties in his cabin and ended up spending a lot of time with me in the office. We ended up bonding because I found out he lives in my neighbourhood in good ol' East York. As soon as I saw him today he looked at me, and shouted "the trouble maker is back!" with a huge grin on his face. I was so excited to see him, and gave him a huge hug. He's still a bit of a scrawn..but has grown about a foot, and now wears very thugged out clothes. Anyways..today during Bible, Daniel was sitting at the back by himself, so I went and sat with him. When Ray (who was leading bible) began to read some scripture to the campers, Daniel looked at me and told me that he had some Bible books at home. So we talked about that for a bit, and he told me how that he now reads Bible stories when he needs to calm down, and his favourite is Noah's Ark. My heart just melted!! I shouldn't be surprised by such beautiful little miracles like that, but I was! I never expected something like that from Daniel. He then told me he wasn't allowed to bring his Bible to camp. So I went back to the office I found a kids translation of the old testament, marked out where Noah's Ark was in it, and took it to him at his cabin. He loved it and began flipping through it immediately. It absolutely made my day! To find out that a 11 year old willingly reads scripture when he knows he needs to calm down! In the old testament none the less! How many of us as Christian adults do that? Praise the Lord because he is working in Daniel! I love it...

The end of the day is definitely here. Just waiting for a few of the male cabins to get their campers settled, then it's off to bed. Actually feeling excited for tomorrow....

Blessings!

Summer Days

Staff Orientation is well underway.

I have to say, above anything else I might be feeling about this summer, I am extremely excited about my cabin leaders. God has definitely pulled together some incredible leaders to minister to these kids over the next two months. Its one of the youngest camp staff's I've seen...but also the most focused, spiritually strong, and energetic group I've ever seen pulled together!

I am struggling though with some personal issues. With being able to completely release this summer to God...with feeling apart of the leadership team and that I'm actually needed at this camp...with feeling a bit alone amongst a staff of 75...and as well as feeling drained from issues that are plaguing my heart and mind outside of camp stuff that I am having serious difficulty with just letting go (letting go is always the hardest part...)

So, for all of the above, please keep me in your prayers. I want desperately to be able to focus on the here and now...to be able to be used as God's servant to minister to my cabin leaders, and to the campers. I want to be able to let go of all the selfish personal issues of my heart, and have a clear mind and spirit to be able to handle all that will be thrown my way over this summer.

Campers come in 5 days...

Double Trouble

Happy Birthday to my beautiful twin sisters, Dionne and Donna, who have turned the big 21 today!!

You girls are truly incredible and add everything to my life! I honestly don't know where I would be if I hadn't had you by my side through everything! Thank you for being my best friends and closest companions through thick and thin! Love you two more then you'll ever know! I hope you both have a fantastic day!!

The Care Bear Countdown

Today I had my first adventure in Carealot.

You know..the place..in the clouds..with the Carebears. Well my 3 year old cousin, Joseph, has taken quite a liking to this quality childrens cartoon. In recent months he's even created "Beastly" (bad guy from the Carebears) as his invisible friend.

Anyways. Today at our family "Father's Day BBQ" at my Uncle Brad's house, Joseph and I took a trip to Carealot. We were just sitting on the porch steps, hanging out, when Joseph decided that the plastic tennis rackets we were holding, were now paddles. So..we began to paddle. I asked "where are we going?" and my cousin looked at me and said "No-Hearts castle!" (No-Heart is the ultimate bad guy on the Care Bears show, for any of you who were deprived as a child and missed out on this fantastic cartoon). We then proceeded to walk all around the back yard, continuing our paddling with our plastic rackets, until Joseph pointed up at my Uncles house and exclaimed "There it is! There's the castle!" So with the rest of the family sitting in the backyard watching us with confusion...Joseph and I crept up slowly to the house and went inside (we had to be very quiet and sneaky as all the bad guys were sleeping). Over the next 10 minutes or so we went to nearly every room in the house seeking out all of the bad guy crew, waking each of them up with some crazy yelling, streaming them with a "care bear stare" and then giving each other a high five with a hearty "good job!" This was definitely the highlight to my weekend, after a very long week up at camp.

Just wanted to also say, to my dad...HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! You are a truly incredible man of God, and I am beyond blessed to have you as my dad! Thank you for everything you've given me in all aspects of my life throughout my 22 years, and for never giving up on me! I'm not sure how you've raised 4 kids like us, and lived to tell about it, but thank you for all the time, effort, energy and love you have poured into our lives! I LOVE YOU! Muah!

Only 6 more days until the camp staff comes up for orientation..yikes! Time is quickly going by, but as things are beginning to get organized and planned, I'm getting more and more excited for all that God is going to do this summer at camp!

Thank you to everyone who has been praying for my sanity while planning and getting ready for the summer! Please continue to pray for this camping ministry as it gets under way!

Blessings!

Action Alert

Last week more than 15,000 Canadians sent messages to Finance Minister Ralph Goodale prior to the G8 Finance Ministers Meeting on June 11th. Your efforts, along with those of people around the world, had an impact:

* The G8 Finance Ministers agreed on immediate 100% cancellation of debts for 18 of the poorest countries. It's a big step, but even more is needed to include more than 40 other impoverished countries.

* On June 13 a major committee of Parliament (Foreign Affairs) unanimously called on the government to achieve the internationally accepted aid target of 0.7% of GNI by 2015. The MPs also called for legislation ensuring Canada's aid is focused on ending poverty.

Please help NOW by contacting Prime Minister Paul Martin - before the G8 leaders meeting July 6 - to ensure that he hears tens of thousands of ordinary Canadians, MPs from all parties, and citizens worldwide calling for Canadian leadership. Progress has been made, but the Prime Minister needs to know that MORE MUST BE DONE!

Please send your message to Prime Minister Paul Martin today. Go to www.makepovertyhistory.ca and follow the three easy steps under "Click into Action".
Our next Action Alert will include ideas for July 1, the first global white band action day.

Start planning white band events for your Canada Day activities!

Thank you for taking action!

Liz Bernstein,
Campaign Coordinator and the Make Poverty History team
info@makepovertyhistory.ca
http://www.makepovertyhistory.ca

Caroline

Woke up to this song this morning (yay Christian radio Z 100.3)....today will be a better day..

Where do I begin?
There's so much I wanna say
To make it easier
Tomorrow's on its way
Do you believe I wanna take your painful memories?
I know you wanna run away
And I know that you can't see tomorrow

Caroline,
Let me wipe away your tears
And give you life
Make you feel beautiful again

Caroline,
Don't throw it all way
I'm here tonight
To take away your pain

Yesterday is gone
And everything that made you cry
Has fallen to the ground

I'm here to bring you home
I will alway take you back
You havent let me down
I know you wanna run away
And I know that you can't see tomorrow

Caroline,
Let me wipe away your tears
And give you life
Make you feel beautiful again
Caroline,
Don't throw it all away
I'm here tonight
To take away your pain

And when your feeling all alone
And you can't go on
Remember I am here
And when you think you've gone to far
I'll meet you where you are
My arms are open wide

Caroline,
Let me wipe away your tears
And give you life
Make you feel beautiful again
Caroline,
Don't throw it all away
I'm here tonight
To take away your pain

The Summer Job Begins

I haven't posted in a while, so I thought I'd write a quick one.

I got home safe and sound Sunday night from my travels out west.

The wedding was absolutely beautiful, and Dayla was just a gorgeous bride! I had an awesome time hanging out with good friends that I hadn't seen in ages, and it was such a privledge to be able to help with setting up, and then attending Dayla and Seth's wedding! All the pictures from the wedding and my Sask trip are up on my MSN Space so check those out! (link is on the right).

I am now up at camp, and already stressed out and feeling overwhelmed. Tonight was a long night, but I did have a wonderful surprise of chocolate milk and a bag of smart food to help cheer me up! (Thanks Ian!) I'm sure once things get a bit more organized and I feel more "in the loop" things will get easier. But please pray for me over the next 10 days leading up to the start of camp, as well as for the camp ministry itself!

Well, that's all for now as I should really head to bed as I'm sure tomorrow will be another busy day.

Blessings!

Apparently, I've been tagged....

The lovely Leslie Wiseman has tagged me...so here goes...

# of Books I own:

Wayyyy too many to count. I still have all my Fear Street and Nancy Drew books from when I was a kid!

Last Book I Bought:

Every Woman's Battle, Shannon Ethridge

Last Book I Read:

Shadowlands, William Nicholson

Books That Mean a Lot to Me:

-Bible
-LOTR, J.R.R Tolkien
-Chronicles of Narnia, C.S Lewis
-Searching for God Knows What, Donald Miller
-Laugh Again, Chuck Swindoll

Tag 5 More:

Donna Halsey

Jessica "Sparky" Hynes

Strong Bad the 2nd

Paul Banfield

Heather Princess

Email Ralph Goodale

"There is no time to lose.

On the June 10th and 11th G8 Finance Ministers will have their last meeting before the G8 leaders meet in July in Scotland.

It is vital that they take crucial steps to enable the G8 leaders to commit to 100% debt cancellation, more and better aid and trade justice.

Right now across the world people are e-mailing G8 Finance Ministers to tell them to seize the opportunities of 2005.

Please send your message to Canada's Finance Minister Ralph Goodale today. Go to: www.makepovertyhistory.ca and follow the three easy steps under "Click into Action".

Thanks very much for being part of this global action,

Liz Bernstein

Make Poverty History Campaigner and the Make Poverty History Campaign Team info@makepovertyhistory.ca"

Barefoot Dancing

Yesterday we had Brooke's birthday bbq, which was some fun times! It's always entertaining to see a baby enjoy her first piece of birthday cake! Then last night Chantelle and I went for a walk through Wascana park and watched the sunset on the Lake..it was gorgeous! I added pictures to my MSN Space from both activities.

Today the sun is shining..and it hasn't rained! Finally! So I decided to take Dakota for a walk while Chantelle was napping.

I noticed that Dakota does something funny when she goes on a walk. While she is walking on the pavement, Dakota trots along very proper like alongside me (always on the left side for some weird reason). But the moment that one of her little paws hit the grass...she reverts to her energetic puppy form and begins leaping, rolling, and running in circles. So, as it was obviously becoming impossible to keep Dakota on the cement path that we were walking on, I gave in. I kicked off the sandals, turned up the volume on my disc man, and spent the next hour running and dancing through a field with a very enthusiastic 3 month old puppy. There is just something about dancing barefoot in the sun with some great tunes going that brings a smile to your face and just brightens up your day. Not to mention that it was great being secluded in the middle of a large field, as no one (hopefully) could hear me singing horridly out of key along to my disc man.

My song pick of the day for my dancing excursion was "No one like you" by David Crowder Band..I love it!

You are more beautiful

Than anyone ever

Everyday You're the same

You never change, no never

Everywhere You are there

Earth or air, surrounding

I'm not alone, the heavens sing along

My God You're so outstanding

How could You be so good to me?

Eternally I believe...

Some days you just need to just stop walking along the proper road, kick off the shoes, and dance around barefoot in the grass....

Only 5 more days till the wedding!

Land of Living Skies

So, I figured I should update, since I haven't posted since arriving in Saskatchewan.

Travelling from Vancouver to Regina, I had the experience of riding in the smallest plane I've ever been on. It seated about 40 people, had only 2 seats on each side, and you had to walk outside and go up little stairs that unfolded from the plane in order to get to it. I was scared out of my mind, but I had a nice gentleman sitting beside me who gave me some reassurances that we would survive the flight....and we did!

It is absolutely fantastic to be in Saskatchewan again! I haven't been here since last Feb, and was desperately missing this province...along with one of my favourite people in life, Chantelle! I've been doing a lot of relaxing, and just hanging out, which is nice. Everything is a lot slower paced then Toronto, and I love it.

It's been raining every day since I got here, which kindof sucks. But the skies are still beautiful and once the storm clouds pass, I get to see that beautiful sky underneath.

I have finally gotten to meet beautiful Brooke, Chantelle's niece, who is turning 1 this weekend. I'll get to go to a birthday bbq for her, which should be awesome. I've also gotten to meet the cutest dog I've ever seen in my life...Chantelles new puppy, Dakota. (if you go to my MSN space you can see a few photos of both Brooke and Dakota!)

Well, we're about to head out as we're meeting up with a friend for lunch..and then tonight, meeting up with another buddy of mine for coffee. Should be another fabulous day of crusin around to country music, and only 9 more days until the wedding!

Blessings!

The Great Family Gathering

My time in British Columbia is rapidly drawing to a close.

Tonights celebrations for my Grandparents 50th anniversary were a huge success, and it was a well enjoyed time had by all. It was an incredible experience to have all 4 children of my grandparents, and as well to have all 10 grandchildren, in the same place at the same time...first time in 20 years that all the family has been able to be together. A lot of memories were shared, and beautiful words were spoken. It's such an inspiring and beautiful thought to think that my grandparents have been married for 50 years, and they still look at each other with as much love, respect, and friendship as they did when they were first married!

Here are some random highlights and favourite moments from my visit out to BC:

- Marissa (6yrs old) sitting on my lap...looking up at me with a sweet smile..then proudly announcing that she had just 'trumped' on me...and then falling into a fit of giggling as I looked at her with shock
- watching Caitlin (10 yrs old) build mount Fugi out of sand on the beach at White Rock
- laying down on Isabels (8 yrs old) bunk bed, and reading an inscription that she had written there.."I love Dogs..and God...and Horses"
- playing in the creek with all 4 girls and finding a whole coconut floating in the water
- Bradley attempting to sing "power of your love" with Di, Donna, and I
- going to Red Robin with all the older girl cousins "I'm going to steal a glass!"
- having a very inspiring conversation with my grandpa
- seeing my 4 cousins take part in a production of the Lion King
- My uncle enlisting his nieces into a child labour envelope ring
- Teaching Caitlin and Isabel to hang spoons off of their nose...and cheeks..and chin..
- Recieving random "I love you's" from my cousins
- Teaching Caitlin how to pose for a picture with her finger in her nose (my classiness continues :P)
- The twins being entertained by Bradleys antics
- My grandpa's simple, yet brilliant sense of humour - Donna: "Are you communicating with whales?" Papa: "Nope...monkeys..didn't you understand it?"
- Seeing my dad, his 2 brothers and his sister all in the same room with their parents for the first time in 20 years

Now, it's off to Saskatchewan!

Christ's Wisdom

Last night I was sitting on the back porch as the sun was setting, sitting on the swinging chair, and just reading through some passages in my Bible. I came across one in 1 Corinthians that I don't recall reading straight through before. It really struck me as such a beautiful passage of encouragement. Here it is, with my favourite parts bolded...

Christ the Wisdom and Power of God

For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. For it is written:

'I will destroy the wisdom of the wise; the intelligence of the intelligent i will frustrate.'

Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not know him, god was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe. Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom, but we preach Christ crucified; a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles, but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. For the foolishness of god is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.

Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. he chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things - and the things that are not to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from god - that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: 'Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.'

When I came to you brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about god. For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. I came to you in weakness and fear and with much trembling. My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power.

-1 Corinthians 1:18 - 2:5

What I love about this passage is just how it talks about those who weren't very smart, and those who weren't very influencial...and that God chose to use this people to "shame the wise." It's incredible what the power of the Holy Spirit can do in our lives, and to use us for the bettering of the Kingdom of Heaven if we are able to admit and realize our limitations, our weakness, and our very foolishness without the Lord.

"The weakness of God is stronger than man's strength" Amen! Our God is awesome and mighty, and beyond anything in this world! I love it!

The Majesty that is BC

Friday night already..the week is flying by.

Thursday I had one of the most beautiful and incredible experiences I've ever had in my life. Di and I got to go whale watching with my uncle David. We went out the Fraser River, onto the Strait of Georgia, and rode on a boat for 5 hours total. The weather was just gorgeous and there was a clear blue sky, so you could see a horizon of mountains in every direction.

We saw loads of bald eagles, perched on rock formations and trees on islands that we passed, as well as flying over head. After an hour or so of riding in the boat, we came across a large group of seals. Normally they are all out on the rocks, just bathing in the sun, but when we went by there was about 30 of them swimming in the water. They completely surrounded the boat, and as we cut off the engines, they curiously swam right up to us seeing what exactly was going on. It was so neat, and just such an incredible feeling to be surrounded by all these little heads bobbing in the water as the seals swam around us.

After a couple hours, we located one of three pods of whales that live in the area. It was so incredible to see them swimming by, in their natural habitat. A highlight for me was hearing them speak. The naturalist on board put a special microphone into the water that was hooked up to our p.a system, so that you could hear the whales communicating with each other. It was so cool. We even had one whale swim directly under our boat, and we could hear him making clicking sounds as we went by. It was so beautiful to be floating in the middle of this endless water, and all you can see in every direction are huge mountains tearing up the horizon, as a half dozen Orca whales swim all around you.

As we drove the hour back to the port, I stood at the back of the boat just basking in the sunshine, and taking in all the incredible landscape that we were passing by. I was (and still am) in just total awe and wonder and what I've seen. God is just so majestic...it's astounding and absolutely mind boggling. He is just such a mighty and great Lord...how people can doubt the wondrous works of an almighty creator is beyond me.

I am having a wonderful time out here, which is always the case whenever I visit. It's great spending time with my younger cousins, and just enjoying the fellowship of all my family out here. And of course, just spending lots of time reflecting and listening to God as I am away from all the hussle and bussle of Toronto. It's been interesting..but God is good, and is and will continue to take care of me. He's also been reminding me of just how much I have to be thankful for. From my incredible family (both in Toronto and out here), to just realizing all the amazing people I have in my life and the great friendships that I am privledged to have. I am blessed beyond anything I deserve to know the people that I do, and to have the love and friendships that are in my life.

Tomorrow a whole bunch of the family is heading down to White Rock for the afternoon, so that should be another wonderful day spent in this beautiful BC weather. Only four more days and then it's off to my second home, Saskatchewan.

Blessings!

Beautiful British Columbia

Beautiful indeed!! The last two or three times that I've flown out to Vancouver, there has always been an overcast..but not this time! My sister Dionne and I got the full incredible view of all the mountains and hills as we flew into BC last night..absolutely breathtaking!! So, we have arrived safe and sound..and I have survived yet another plane trip. I think my nerves are starting to get a bit stronger when it comes to riding airplanes, but I doubt that I will ever be fully calm with the take off and landing bits (Di graciously held my hand during those parts...and even put up with me almost jumping out of my seat when the plane dipped). But they did show "In Good Company" which was awesome because I really wanted to see it (and I thought that the ending was fantastic the way it was!).

We got picked up from the airport by our Uncle David, who is also from Toronto and had arrived earlier that day. We got to ride in the lap of luxury as he had rented a spiffy Cadillac..including butt warmer seats...which despite the fact that it was 18 degrees outside, I most definitely used!

It's been 2.5 years since Di has been out here, so all the fam was very glad to see her beautiful face. We had a few quiet moments with our grandparents, and with our aunt, before the energetic bunch of cousins arrived home. The twins (who are now 6..holy geez) played shy for all of 30 seconds, and then resumed normal status and were climbing all over us. Isabel is now 8, and Caitlin is 10 (and nearly the same height as me! Good glory!), and it was really awesome to get to see them again. We got flooded with pretty cards and pictures of flowers that they had drawn for us as a welcome present. So, overall a fantastic arrival night I'd say.

This morning, it is another beautiful clear day outside, and Di and I are just taking our time to relax in our pj's and enjoy some holiday time. I think we're going to go for a walk in a bit to enjoy the sunshine. Donna and my dad head out here to join us tomorrow, and then my mom and Bradley come out on Friday.

Tomorrow, my Uncle David is taking Di and I whale watching!! I'm so pumped! I've been out here loads of times, but never have been able to go...should be really exciting!

Oh..on a random note (Dad, this is for you). A few minutes after arriving, I took Di out to the back porch that leads out from my Grandparents part of the house, as she hadn't seen the extended bedroom that has been built there. When I was here in September I stayed in that room, and had left (for the second time) my cell phone charger there (since Sept I've had to use a car charger..). Before my dad left us at the airport I asked him if my family had ever found it, but he said no. So, just to make sure, I climbed over the bed, and dug out the extension cord that was there, and guess what was still plugged in? Yup..my cell phone charger. Had a couple laughs over that...and it's good to have it back again...so long as it actually comes home to Ontario with me this time...

Blessings!

(P.S. Everyone..please feel free to email me, as I'll have access to a computer over the next 3 weeks while I'm away!)

"Guaranteed to fail, every time"

My sister and I were working on a poster for Salvo Uprising this weekend, and Donna came across a very funny article in an old EDGE magazine..and I thought that I would share it...(I would LOVE to hear a Christian guy actually use these..classic!)

15 Christian Pickup Lines

1. Yeah, I predicted David over Goliath
2. Can I pray with you?
3. You know Jesus? Me too!
4. I know a church where we could go and talk.
5. Do you need help carrying your Bible? It looks heavy.
6. Christians don't shake hands, Christians gotta hug. (Donnas favourite)
7. Oh you are cold? Ecclesiastes 4:11, "But how can one keep warm alone?"
8. What are you plans tonight? Feel like a Bible study?
9. The Bible says to give drink to those who are thirsty, and feed the hungry. How about dinner?
10. You don't have an accountability partner? Me neither.
11. You want to come over and watch the Ten Commandments tonight?
12. Is it a sin that you stole my heart?
13. Would you happen to know a Christian woman that I could love with all my heart and wait on hand and foot?
14. Nice Bracelet. What would Jesus date...er...I mean 'do'?
15. My friend told me to come and meet you. He said that you are a really nice person. I think you know Him. Jesus...yeah, that's His name (by far my favourite! so great!)

Multiplicity

My sister and I got into an interesting discussion today, and I thought I would post some of our ramblings on here that we were conversing about.

A totally random question that we came up with...is it possible to like more then one person at a time?

Discount when you're a kid, as getting crushes on multiple people quite often happen. But what about when you're older, and you have more of a sense of what liking someone means (well, hopefully you do..) and are able to have more depth to your thoughts about why you might like the person that you do.

So..can you "like" more then one person at a given time?

The thought that we had (keeping in mind it's just a random thought, and not directed towards anyone)...

If you claim to have feelings for both person 'a' and person 'b' (and maybe a 'c' as well..) then doesn't the mere fact that you "like" multiple people prove that you really don't have strong enough feelings for just one of them as you aren't able to focus yourself on just one person..and really then, don't actually like either of them? Sure, they both might be swell people, and you can see the potential...but are you really capable of having true, genuine feelings for more then one person at the same time? And if you answer 'yes' to that question...then how serious can you really be about these people if they aren't even worth being the the soul focus of your attention and emotion? Hmm...

I think maybe my sister and I are just mind boggled at the thought of liking more then one guy at the same time...as liking just one at a time is more then enough to stress out the mind and cripple the emotions (lol).

So, not sure if anyone has any thoughts regarding this issue..but if you do..comment away! I'd love to hear it!

Placement Update

I had my placement interview yesterday morning for school in September. To sum it up...it was an amazing interview.

Right from when I walked into the room, I felt calm, relaxed, and confident. The lady interviewing me was really nice, and easy to talk to. She was really impressed by my work experience with the Children's Aid and my previous placements, and loved to hear that I had spent a lot of time this year that I took off of school volunteering. She brought in one of the CYW's to meet me, and she as well was extremly nice, and was excited about the prospect of me being there in the fall.

I was able to pick which age group I wanted to work with, so I choose the 12-14 year olds. A lot of the program is based on relationship building and implementing therapeutic goals for each student who is at this day treatment centre. There is a lot of one-to-one work, which I'm really excited about, because I loved getting to know kids and working with them on their goals.

I also get to wear jeans and runners every day, and I'm only there from 8-4...I am so excited!

I left the interview absolutly pleased, and I'm actually a bit excited for school to start in the fall!

There are still a couple minor details to work out, but overal, things are looking really good!

Thank you to everyone who has kept me in their prayers over the past few months regarding school!

Blessings!

Little Pink Tricycle

I think that I have finally recovered from my jet leg and starting to feel a little bit more normal and like myself again. It's always hard to adjust back to everyday life after traveling and having a bit of an adventure..but there are plenty of things to keep me busy here at home and to be looking forward to as the summer approaches.

I have to share a highlight of my weekend. Sunday evening while we were packing up the van after the 614 service in Regent Park, there were several kids out playing on the bikes. One little girl, who I think was about 4 years old, rode her little pink tricycle up to me and asked if I wanted to see how fast she could ride her bike. I answered with "of course!" and spent the next 10 minutes or so watching her demonstrate all her fabulous skills that she had mastered on her tricycle. She also told me about her siblings, her favourite colour, what school she goes to, and several other important conversation pieces that occupy the mind of a four year old. As the van finished being packed up, I told my new friend I had to go and that it was nice to meet her. She said "wait!" and insisted that I couldn't leave until she sang a song to me. So she got off her bike, walked over to me, and as I kneeled down to her height, she proceeded to sing the "I love you" Barney song to me, which absolutely melted my heart! After the song was finished I said thanks, gave her a hug and waved goodbye. Gotta love random moments that make your heart smile!

Tomorrow morning at 9:30am I have my interview for my school placement for the fall. Things were hectic before going to England, for myself and the lady who is interviewing me, so it's had to be put off this late. I am nervous about it, as although it's not a paid position..it is a very official interview and definitely extremely important for my school year in September. Please keep me in your prayers as I prepare for this, and that I will appear calm, confident, and a right fit for this placement position!

Well, I'm just finishing up my shift at work..so that's about it for now...

Blessings!

Home

Well, I'm home safe and sound (though a little jet-lagged) from my trip to England. I had an absolutly incredible time, and I'm so glad that I went! I met some amazing people who I miss already, and hope will come and visit Canada some day! I heard a lot from God and learned a lot about myself, and some things that I need to work on. As well, attending UK Roots was just an all together fabulous experience!

I'll write more later, as I'm a little tired right now, but if you want to see my pix from my trip just CLICK HERE.

Cheers!

Update from England

Hello from Southport England!

Well, just because my sister bugged me about it, I thought I'd put up a quick post!

I arrived in England safe and sound Thursday afternoon! Yay! I had some difficulties on the plane ride over though..as there was about half an hour of turbulance...and I don't really do well with that as anyone who knows me will know. So I popped in my Passion Hymns Cd and totally put my attention on the book I was reading and was able to remain calm for the most part (even though I didn't have you holding my hand Donna!) And then I almost missed my connecting flight in London as the airport is so huge and it took me about an hour to get from one plane to the other and go through immigration and all that jazz. But alas..I survived both flights and arrived in Manchester no worse for the wear.

I have been having an absolutly incredible time!! Right since I got here God's been really close and just telling me lots, which is so awesome! It has been so great getting to see Chris again, and catch up. I have been meeting a lot of really incredible people, having a lot of laughs, and sharing some great experiences (and learning some great British lingo!) I am taking lots of pictures (even though Chris keeps making fun of me and calling me a tourist...but thats what I am!) and trying to write down and keep track of as many memories that I can!

Roots is pretty incredible I must say. I am really enjoying being apart of the create team with Chris, and helping with a venue that uses art and different forms of prayer to allow people to draw close to God. We were a little unsure of how people would respond to our stations we set up, but things have been going really well, and God is just present in our create tent..so amen!

This afternoon we have the Roots Big Picnic..where they will be gathering all 5000 participants together for a time of games and such. As well, we will be attempting to break a world record, to raise awareness about Human Trafficking. We will be trying to have the largest group of people breaking balloons at the same time (and it has to be within 10 seconds!). I'll let you know how that works out!

Well, I guess that'll do for an update! And I'll write again when I can!

Cheers

Laugh..go on..you know you want to..

Over the past few days I've spent a lot of time laughing. Most of it was at the silliness and randomness of the company I was with...but it was definitely all good times and I enjoyed it immensely.

I have a friend who's said to me on more then one occasion that he doesn't take life too seriously, because too many people already do.

Do you ever get so caught up in what you're doing that you forget to smile? Does school, work, people, projects, or life take up so much of your time that you become grim faced and forget what laughter sounds like?

Deadlines are important...getting a paycheck is often vital...and getting projects in on time is definitely a good thing. But don't let that absorb up everything that you are, or became all you do.

It really is the simple things in life that make it worth living. And I know so many people say that, but do you actually live that out? Do you actually make the time for the simple things? The things that make you smile? The things that you know makes other people smile?

So if you can't recall the last time you let out a deep gut wrenching laugh, or you've forgottern how to curve your lips into that thing called a smile...take a break. Go smell the roses. Walk through the grass with no shoes on. Watch a funny movie. Spend time with people who make you tear up from laughing so hard.

Live life...or you're going to miss it.

I'm in His hands

I shall not fear though darkened clouds may gather round me;
The God I serve is one who cares and understands.
Although the storms I face would threaten to confound me,
Of this I am assured: I'm in his hands.

I'm in his hands, I'm in his hands;
Whate'er the future holds
I'm in his hands,
The days I cannot see
Have all been planned for me;
His way is best, you see;
I'm in his hands.

What though I cannot know the way that lies before me?
I still can trust and freely follow his commands;
My faith is firm since it is he that watches o'er me;
Of this I'm confident: I'm in his hands.

I'm in his hands, I'm in his hands;
Whate'er the future holds
I'm in his hands,
The days I cannot see
Have all been planned for me;
His way is best, you see;
I'm in his hands.

In days gone by my Lord has always proved sufficient,
When I have yielded to the law of love's demands;
Why should I doubt that he would evermore be present
To make his will my own? I'm in his hands!

I'm in his hands, I'm in his hands;
Whate'er the future holds
I'm in his hands,
The days I cannot see
Have all been planned for me;
His way is best, you see;
I'm in his hands.

Come Back Down

Staring right back in the face
A memory can’t be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness and everything
I’m gonna miss I know,
that I can’t hide
All this time is passing by
I think its time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I’ll be there for you
Don’t have to be alone
With what you’re going through

Start to breathe and fake a smile
Its all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts

I know, you hold inside
I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I’ll be there for you
Don’t have to be alone
With what you’re going through

You’re coming back down
You say you feel lost, can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded

You’re coming back down
You don’t have to tell me what you’re feeling
I know what you’re going through
I wont be the one that lets go of you
I think its time to just move on

When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I’ll be there for you
Don’t have to be alone
With what you’re going through

England Bound

Well, for anyone who hasn't heard yet...next Wednesday night I am flying out to England. I'm getting pretty excited about it, although the 7.5 hour flight over water doesn't quite thrill me!

I'm heading out to visit one of my favourite people in life, Tidd Rock, and also to be apart of UK Roots which is happening on April 29. I haven't been to England since I was 7, and don't remember too much of it (besides the wedding that I was in) so this should be good times for sure! I have the opportunity to help with the create team at Roots and lead some worship through art. I'm pretty pumped about it, although quite nervous because I've never really led any kindof worship before!

Please pray for me for a safe trip (as plane rides and I aren't the best of friends), and as well that Roots is just a really incredible experience for all involved!

Blessings!

The Many Faces of Joseph

I realized that I didn't have a lot of pictures of my 3 year old cousin and I....so we went camera crazy..and here is the results...

Here are our tounges

A forced 'happy' face

A couple of sad faces

There's no arguing that these are some scary faces...oh man...

In deep thought

Joseph's favourite way to say goodbye.."peace dude!"

Some classic Fonz.."Eehhh!"

Handle With Care

I love nothing more then a good conversation....and today was full of them.

I spent all three of my meals today with different people, in different locations...communicating about very different things. And in between those meals, I spent time with a couple other people, once again having some good chats about various different things.

One conversation has lingered the most for me in my mind, and I have spent a great deal of time since the chat, mulling over the words that we shared and the memories that the topic brought up for me.

It's interesting to notice how many people look back at decisions they've made in relationships with the opposite sex, and wish that they had done things so differently. I most definitly fit into this category.

When I recount for the different interactions and relationships I've had growing up I sometimes look back in regret, embarrassment, and disbelief. Did that really seem logical to me at the time? Was I really that blind? Was I really that trusting and gullible? Did I really set standards that low for myself?

I aim to not linger on the regret though. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and that God can use a broken and horrible situation for His glory and for the betterment of the believer. I am the person I am today because of the situations I've gone through, and because of what my gracious and forgiving Father has taught me through my irrational and naive decisions.

Something I have learned over the past little while though, is how God never intended for these things to happen. Did you know that He never created our fragile and emotion filled heart to be broken? Did you know that He wants to guard your heart jealously until you have learned and grown enough that it can be trusted in the hands of someone else?

I wish I could drive that message into other girls who are currently finding themselves in the same situations that I was once in (I say girls..because I am one, so those are the experiences obviously that I had). Don't settle...don't be in a relationship with someone because you're lonely and seeking to fill the void. Not all guys are liars...not all guys will hurt you, use you, and break your heart. The Lord wants to make you a strong, confident, and mature woman of God. And eventually...you will meet that guy who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated...like a princess.

As ridiculous as it may sound to some (as it did to me growing up), trust God with your relationships. Trust God with that boy you think you need to be with. Trust God when you think all you need to be happy is a guy who tells you that you're wonderful and the best thing since sliced bread.

Trust God with your heart.

You Humble Me - Norah Jones

Went out on a limb
Gone too far
Broken down at the side of the road
Stranded at the outskirts and sun's creepin' up

Baby's in the backseat
Still fast asleep
Dreamin' of better days
I don't want to call you but you're all I have to turn to

What do you say
When it's all gone away?
Baby I didn't mean to hurt you
Truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart,
No matter how hard you resist it
It never rains when you want it to

You humble me Lord
Humble me Lord
I'm on my knees empty
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
Please, please, please forgive me

Baby Teresa got your eyes
I see you all the time
When she asks about her daddy
I never know what to say

Heard you kicked the bottle
And helped to build the church
You carry an honest wage
Is it true you have someone keeping you company?

What do you say
When it's all gone away?
Baby I didn't mean to hurt you
Truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
No matter how hard you resist it
It never rains when you want it to

You humble me Lord
Humble me Lord
I'm on my knees empty
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
Please, please, please forgive me

Mission Jamaica Reunion

Yesterday afternoon/evening I got to spend several hours with my mission team family, as we had our Mission Jamaica reunion. It was a wonderful time as we shared memories, caught up with what everyone was doing now, and just enjoyed each others company again. Tons of photos were passed around and shared, and we watched a video from the trip that one of the girls had recorded. We even sang a song that had the lyrics re-written with memories from our trip. It was an incredible time, finished off with a devotion and a sharing of testimony's of the lasting impacts that the mission had for us.

I was given some new photos to add to my collection, so I thought I would share a few of my favourites that I received yesterday....

This one is a view of the house through the grass (obviously). Thats me in the white shirt, and Donna in the blue shirt. I thought it was a pretty cool view.

This is such a beautiful picture. I've talked so much about how the kids took care of each other, and this sums it up. All three of these kids are visually impaired to some degree, and the one on the right in the swing has a handicapped arm as well. Every single morning they would take turns pushing each other on the swing, and making sure they got on the swing safely. I love it..such incredible children.

This picture is classic!! This was nearing the end of our second rain day (which was in the first week), and we were asked to move from our job of sweeping all the water out of the building (that still had no roof) and become the fire brigade! So, with soaking wet wood, and the worst matches I've ever seen in my life (we used 3 packs!) we finally got a fire started! Yay for the log cabin method! (Although it was mostly me starting the fire, and my two lovely assistants watching and offering advice haha..so great!) It ended up getting so big, and the coals got so hot, we were able to keep this thing going for the rest of the trip! Pat is on the left, I'm in the middle, and Robynn is on the right.

Now..this picture..fantastic. (Laurie on the left, me on the right). I didn't know that this picture existed until it was handed to me yesterday! So here's the story..it was nearing the end of our second week of hard labour, and we were beyond tired! I had spent over 3 days of over 10 hours each day rolling paint onto ceilings, and was definitely looking for a change in jobs! So, the boys let me have the scaffolding to do the cutting in on the ceilings and some final touch ups. This was most definitely my favourite job on the trip because I absolutely loved climbing up on to this thing, and walking around on it so high up off of the ground. Anyways, Laurie and I had been touching up the rooms for a few hours, and it was getting pretty late, and we didn't want to start a new job. So..to lengthen the job that we had...we sang while we worked. We started out with some great old school Disney tunes from Little Mermaid to Aladdin..then moved right into Bon Jovi, Michael Jackson, and Cyndi Lauper. We were beyond exhausted, so we didn't care what people thought of us, and we sang our little hearts out! We even got in some nice dance moves while walking across the scaffolding! It was some fantastic times, and apparently the entire work site could hear us! We even ended up getting people popping their heads into the room and requesting songs for us to sing. So..somewhere in the 3 hours of our singing and painting, someone took this picture. I don't know if the picture really does it justice, but I am singing my heart out and having the time of my life! Love it!

What becomes of the brokenhearted...

I spent some time tonight in a bar/restaurant at Parliament and Dundas called My Town. I had joined 614 for their prayer walk, and my group and I headed out to spend some time in prayer and meditation at this particular location. It was definitly an interesting experience. This joint attracks quite the arrange of people...age wise, job wise, and culturally. The walls are covered with flags from different countries, quite a few sombreros, and there are plants hanging down over the bar. The look is quite unique for this part of Regent as it seems that the owners have tried to keep this place a cleaner, safer and brighter establishment then is usually found in this area.

One thing that really hit me was the loneliness of the place. It is a place where the lonely and broken come to sit, and dwell in their circumstances. Someone in my group mentioned that people seem to long to be recognized...to know that someone is noticing them, and their lives have some sort of meaning. So these lonely souls come to sit in a "public" place in the desperate hope that someone might notice their existence...that their empty lives might actually mean something. Even the music that played on the jukebox reflected the emptiness and brokenness that was embodied in those who sat in this place.

After leaving My Town and heading back to our starting point, we prayed continuously for the place that we just left. I found myself getting emotional as I asked God to be there for these lonely souls. That even if they've never experienced God in any way, that He would sit with them...that He would hold their hands...that He would stare back into those empty lives and go straight deep into the very broken hearts of who they are. We asked God's presence to be in and all around My Town as we made an effort in Jesus' name to take back this location for Him...that this would be another broken dark corner that God would reach His beautiful and incredible everlasting light into and rescue those in the bondage of loneliness.

This night has really caused me to reflect on myself. Earlier today I had thoughts of loneliness cross my mind...those are gone now as I realize how wrong I have been. Not only am I surrounded by a lot of family and people who are a constant support...I have God. Even in my most lonely moments, when I thought that no one understood, and I cried out to God for his love and strength...at least I knew I had the Lord. I can honestly not even picture the pain and hurt that would bury itself deep in my soul and scar my heart if I did not have the love of Christ in me...if I did not know that no matter what comes along, I will never be completely alone because I have God on my side.

I pray that God will reach those who sit, even now, in My Town and other establishments with their drinks sitting in front of them as their only comfort...as they wait desperately and bitterly to be recognized..to feel that their life means something to someone...anyone.

Lord use me to be a light for You..may I be a "Jesus person" in places that don't know Your name..

Be Blessed

What makes you smile?

The man who plays the steel drum at Main Station

Strong bad emails

My 3 year old cousin when he sings me a song about a pinecone

A beautiful sunset...even a Toronto one

When my Grandma says "it's only because I love you.."

Watching the muppets

My cat when she sleeps at the foot of my bed..even though I kick her while I sleep

White Hot Chocolate from Second Cup

Walking along the rocks at the beach

A sincere compliment

Getting a letter/email from someone I haven't heard from in a while

Watching the kids in Regent Park worship

Star spinning

My uncle when he calls me "Esther-fester-bester-tester"

Spring time

When I sing hairbrush karoke with Jessica

Camp

A walk in the rain

When I'm dancing around my room to Great Big Sea

A good conversation

When I"m watching Donna sing her heart out to a song..and then she notices that I'm watching

A hug from a friend

Walking outside barefoot

Reading Lord of the Rings

Peanut butter and chocolate ice cream

When I hear "I love you" from someone I know means it

A pillow fight

Dionne when she's had too much sugar or not enough sleep..or both

When I eat banana bread

When my brother gives me a hug hello when he gets home from school

Pay day

Wearing PJ pants

A thunderstorm

Hanging out with good friends

Visiting Saskatchewan

When people freak out over the tunnels in my ears

Going through my highschool yearbooks

Sandel weather

Will Farrell

Crusin' to Country with Chantelle

My squad kids

When I remember that nothing about me is a mistake, but exactly the way God intended me to be...and He loves me just the way I am

What makes you smile?

"Why are you down in the dumps, dear soul? Why are you crying the blues? Fix my eyes on God-- soon I'll be praising again. He puts a smile on my face. He's my God." -Psalm 42:5 (MSG)

You and me

I have a new favourite song right at this moment, and I FINALLY found out who sings it and what it was called tonight while I was driving. So I thought I would post the lyrics..although you really have to hear the song to do it justice. It's a sweet one! Love it!

You and Me - Lifehouse

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove

And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Sunshine and Birthdays

Ever have one of those days that you are just glad to be alive? And that between you and God things were in control and life is fantastic? Well...I had one of those days today! Although it probably had a lot to do with the absolutely beautiful sunshine that was out!

I saw Million Dollar Baby last night...finally. I think I was one of the last dozen people who had yet to see it. But it's an awesome flick. It really had a huge message about dreams, and accomplishing your goals in life. It was pretty powerful...just emphasizing how important it is to have dreams, and to not just set out to accomplish them, but to keep at it until you fulfill them. Life is pretty short...and you only get one shot at it. Anything you're missing out on? Are you limiting your imaginative scope and selling yourself short? Hmmm....

Well, it's past midnight..so...Happy Birthday to my dad!! He is the most incredible father I could have ever hoped for, and I really have no idea where I would be without him! Dad...thank you for always keeping your faith in me, even when you knew the decisions I was making weren't right. Thank you for being a strong rock for me to lean and depend on in absolutely every situation that came along, even if I didn't always seem appreciative! Thank you for getting to me where I am today, and I look forward to everything that is still to come! I hope you have an incredible day! Muah!

Blessings!

Perfect Love

"We all need improvement, but we don't need to woo God's love. We change because we already have God's love. God's perfect love. Perfect love is just that - perfect, a perfect knowledge of the past and a perfect vision of the future. You cannot shock God with you actions. There will never be a day that you cause him to gasp, 'Whoa, did you see what she just did?' God knows your entire story, from first word to final breath, and with clear assessment declares, 'You are mine.'

Trust God's love. His perfect love. Don't fear he will discover your past. He already has. Don't fear disappointing him in the future. He can show you the chapter in which you will. With perfect knowledge of the past and perfect vision of the future, he loves you perfectly in spite of both."

-Come Thirsty, Max Lucado

Thank you Lord that there is NOTHING that I have ever done, or ever can do that will but a barrier between me and your love! I will never surprise you, for you know every mistake I will ever make, and yet you will love me anyway! You delite in me, and I praise you for that!

Amen!

Glorious!

"When the sun hits the trees just right...these hills sing.."

- Pacha, The Emperor's New Groove

Did anyone else see that incredible sunset tonight? Beautiful! Even in this city you can still see God's majesty. Love it!

Be Blessed!

School

I've got my placement!

My teacher phoned me today to let me know about school. At first it seemed the news was bad, as she said I would have to wait another week and a half as she has to make sure everyone else has their placement first. But then just before hanging up, a thought occurred to her. She remembered that there was one placement that was really good, but the person who was supposed to get it, backed out. So, do I want it, she asked.

It's a placement at a day treatment facility for ages 12-18 with the Jewish Family Services. My teacher informed me they needed someone who is mature, outgoing, hardworking, and will be able to appreciate and respect the rules that the Jewish culture lives by. So I said I fit into that category and would love this placement! So, my teacher is getting things worked out for me on the asap, and hopefully I'll have an interview set up soon!

Thank you to those who were praying about my placement and school! I feel really excited about this, as I think I've grown a lot over the last year and a bit, and this is a good fit for me! As well its a day treatment placement..so no shift work! Can I get an amen?!

God is good!

Humbled by Your Majesty

Man oh man...does God have a sense of humour.

Do you ever feel like the big guy is just looking down and smiling at you as you attempt to wrap your mind around exactly what His plan is for your life? Nothing mean or malicious of course..but He's just smiling and lightly chuckling as our childlike minds try to ponder through the challenges and interesting turns that our lives may take. I think this thought sums up my past week and a half..gotta love it!

Anyways, heres a song that is one of my favourite worship songs, and was meditating on earlier today. Enjoy!

Blessings

Majesty

Here I am,

humbled by Your majesty,

Covered by Your grace so free.

Here I am,

knowing I'm a sinful man,

Covered by the blood of the Lamb.

Now I've found

The greatest love of all is mine,

since You laid down Your life,

the greatest sacrifice.

Majesty, Majesty.

Your grace has found me just as I am,

Empty-handed but alive in Your hands.

Here I am,

humbled by the love that You give,

Forgiven so that I can forgive.

So here I stand,

knowing that I am Your desire,

Sanctified by glory and fire.

And now I've found

the greatest love of all is mine,

Since You laid down Your life,

the greatest sacrifice.

Majesty, Majesty.

Your grace has found me just as I am,

Empty-handed but alive in your hands.

Singing Majesty, Majesty.

Forever I am changed by Your love,

In the presence of Your Majesty. Majesty.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.

Your grace has found me just as I am,

And I'm nothing but alive in Your hands.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.

Forever I am changed by Your love,

In the beauty of Your Majesty.

Majesty.

He Lives

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow

Because He lives, all fear is gone

Because I know, He holds the future

And life is worth the living

Just because He lives

Family Pix - Birthday Dinner

Here's some updated pix of me and my fam for those of you reading this blog who haven't seen us for a while!


Here is the twins and I...


The boys...


Mom and I...

Happy Easter!

It's the end of March already...where has this year gone?

It's been a pretty busy last week or so as I spent last weekend up at Jacksons with about 80 Regent Park kids, and then spent this week helping with the March Break daycamp down in Regent Park. But I love camp, and these kids are absolutely awesome, so I've loved every minute of it. It's going to be weird having Monday come, and not having any kids to spend the day hanging out with. But I do have a few shifts coming up next week at work, so thats something to look forward to.

I had the privledge last night of attending a Good Friday Passover meal and then an outdoor candlelight service with singing and prayer down in Regent with the 614 Corps. It was a pretty cool night just taking the time to remember how important this weekend is. I don't have a lot of great Easter memories I realized last night, besides just it being a weekend that we used to have family Easter egg hunts when we were kids. But I think it's because growing up I never really let it sink it what exactly this weekend meant, and how important it really is. It's unfortunate how easily it can become redundant and we forget how beautiful and valid the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ is. But I had a few really cool moments last night with God, which is always awesome, and I'm looking forward to tomorrow, when we celebrate the resurrection of our living God.

In a couple days (Tuesday) I have to call my school to find out if I've gotton a placement for my third year of school in September. When I went for my meeting last week, my teacher informed me that I am "out of sequence" because I took this year off, and I will be placed last because of that. So, I'm trying not to think or worry about any of it, and just let God take care of that whole matter for me. I've been thinking about September a lot over the past couple of weeks, and I think that God is going to reveal to me soon exactly what needs to happen....so continued prayer over school and the fall would be much appreciated!

I've realized over the past few days how weak I can become when I turn my focus from God. I've grown a lot over this past year in my relationship with God and have learned to trust Him over a specific area that I've struggled with my whole life. But it's interesting how easily I can slip up as soon as I try and take control and turn from the guidance of the Lord. I'm really trying to get myself back on track in this particular area over the Easter weekend and give it all back to God. I just need to remember to be humble and find all my strength, completeness, happiness and confidence in Jesus first and foremost...

Blessings this Easter weekend!